time... what power..

I've realised.. life is just pain in disguise.. i think that the world does not seem so beautiful as before, when i was a child.. when did the world change? i wonder. or is it me who has changed? i doubt so. I guess it's just the life i hadn't seen, when i was just a little baby... there's so many things going on around here, so many things we can't control. is it fate that we have to go through bad times before it's good? or is it just our own fault. I'm not emo, i'm not sad. i'm just feeling unfair..

there are times, when i wish i could turn back time.i know it isnt possible, i know it's impossible.but why do i wish? because i reject.i reject whatever is placed before me.how could things have turned out,if i took a different path, how could things have changed, if i were wiser.what would have happened, if i decided not to do this, what would happen, it time could turn back.like i said earlier. this is not an emo post.I'm not emo, i'm not sad. i'm just feeling unfair..

what happens, if someone told you he loves you? what happens, if you had a bad past..would it affect you? would it change you?what happens if life sucked before but was great now, did you regret? did you hope to turn back time?but then again, how sure that if u turn back time to make a mistake right, your future will be what you want it to be?there could be other mistakes,the mistakes could be worse.thats why life's pretty much screwed, really.. i'm not lying.